Almost that time...

Well, its almost that time again for Valentines Day... I really wish I was excited for it, but to be honest i'm just not at all. This whole being out of work thing, has drained me emotionally! I feel taxed, bills piling up and my dog has been my been my best friend since being laid off. What does any of that have to do with Valentines Day you say? Well, it's just damn near impossible to find someone special when you don't have a job. It's not like i'm 17 or anything, I'm 36! women at my age are looking to settle down, get serious and have higher expectations from a man. I can't blame them at all, it makes sense. So, needless to say I am not "looking" for someone right now. In my opinion, that is a benefit to having a job, car, own place etc. but, it sucks none the less. I feel almost selfish for wanting that relationship, job, a nice home to call mine.. Lately, I have been putting that relationship up there with getting a job! Right now though, I just don't have too much to "offer" a woman. Yeah yeah, i'm a good guy, etc I do have things to offer but those tend to be overshadowed when you don't have a job.

I am so freaking hungry for work, a career, a workplace home if you will.. I'll move anywhere, open to learning new things and grow as a person. I WANT to go into work early and leave late! I take tremendous pride in whatever I do, and I am constantly thinking of new things, to stay creative. My "Light" is on, i'm home and ready to make someone's company blow up! Again, this all plays a part in a potential relationship... Because, if I feel that I am doing great things at work, it will show and i'll be more confident in finding the right person. Does that make sense?

Ok, on a much lighter note... I'm watching for the first time Jersey Shore on VH1 or MTV? and it is such a horrible show, but I can't stop watching it! lol A couple of things i've noticed about it... I do like how they stick up for each other, call each other out. But, there is way too much drama, and they all have the cheez effect going on for sure.. Most of them have given themselves a nickname and refer to themselves in the third person! so, I started to wonder.... If I was on that show, what would my name be? (except old man, old fart etc.) Would love to hear thoughts! And be honest! post in comments below! I will of course keep everyone in the loop as far as job opportunities! I would say to pray for me, which would be great! but, there are sooo many others that have it worse than me! instead pray hard for them!

So, sorry no funny dating stories as of late... BUT, hopefully I'll have something new to share and soon!

Listening to: Muse