More Random Thoughts... Enjoy!!

First and I guess foremost, I have to address that I deleted my last post. While I will not go into details here, as this blog has and will continue to serve its initial purpose,  To create a few laughs, vent, and to just throw out there what is going on in my little world.  While it was NOT a mistake to write what I had written, as ALL of it was true I must close that chapter of my book and keep my memories for me. Life has a funny way of showing you things that you couldn't imagine could or would ever happen to you.

All that being said... 

I am in a box right now, that is slowly shrinking! No not a coffin lol but, I guess it is fairly similar or at least feels that way as of late.  Follow me if you will, my career is or has tanked and i'm still trying to find a job. In the process of searching, interviewing etc. I have realized something.. The first, is that I believe in myself and my abilities. The second, is that despite what family members and a few friends think, I will own my own business.  Which is something that as recent as 2 years ago, I never would have thought that I could do! ( its a self esteem thing.. Constant work in progress ) While I am looking for work daily, I set aside 2 times during the day for me. The first, is just an hour or so to just reflect, take deep breaths, and meditate. The second, is to masturbate. Just kidding! (wanted to make sure you were paying attention... lol ) Honestly, the second is to formulate exactly HOW I want my business to be. I am reading books, doing my homework, asking the RIGHT questions and trying to be as fully prepared as I can be.

Starting a business, is a lot like having children.  Or at least that is the impression I have, it never seems to be the "right" time, money is never where you would like it to be, double, triple checking EVERYTHING to make sure it is a wise decision and that you are "baby proof" Like having a child your business should be your baby. ( Well, if you are like me and don't have any kids lol)  I still have questions, ( PLENTY) and trying to be as careful as I can be about getting them answered.

More importantly, how do you know you received the right answer? because it worked for that person? maybe.. But, what is right for one may not be right for all too right? I don't want someone to feed me with false information or just to appease me, but it is tough to figure out everyone's true intentions.  The point is, I need help.  I want this to succeed, and realize that a lot of it will be calculated risk, gut instinct and the will to succeed. In the end, I am responsible for the success or failure of the biz.

This, plus much more is going on with myself and those closest to me.  I am far from perfect, nor do I strive to be, I just want to be the BEST that I can be!

Thanks for reading!

Just in case someone IS reading this lol please post in comment section what topic YOU would like me to vent, just talk about, or whatever for the next entry! It can be light, funny, serious, whatever!

Thank you  for reading,

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